It’s all bluster

It’s a small window
I look through most days.
There’s a sunrise and a sunset
I can barely stand to look at
because it’s too beautiful
for the likes of me.

I’m not her. Or the other her.
I age and expand.
I just made small talk
about wind and scarves
while part of my brain
was lost in your limbs and grin.
I’m a damned liar.

You’re not here
but you may as well be,
for you’re imprinted on me
like a bad tattoo
one wakes up to
after a drunken debauch.

When I’m weak,
I look out the window
and compare myself
to the elements.
I’m not the rain.
Or the other storm.
I’m a damned fool.

Capacitor

We’ve met before.
Your hat was jaunty
and your car was huge.
There was a war on
and we reveled in milk
and fresh apples.
There was gingham
and surprises.
We laughed in the sun.

Cathode Current

I put my teeth over a previous imprint
to see if would feel like home.
It didn’t, but I think it’s because
I don’t have words like “comfort” or “home”
any place accessible to my psyche.

I’m a visitor, pushing light through
a tube, aiming to make sense
of numbers when I can only spell
using music. It tastes like magic
when it rains, despite poor reception.

Moonlight mayhem

The wind kept me awake
almost the whole night.
I tried breathing exercises
and fantasizing about
the forbidden,
but my heart raced and raced
until my eyelids were pulsing
and the stars spun like
a disco ball in the night sky.

I’m only sorry
I forgot to ask the moon
for a dance.

Carbon composition resistors

Our purpose seems
to be sliding along waves
plump with color and music
and other information;
bumping into each other
is thrilling- so much better
when we let go.